Opportunity for Evolution

Memory recall today about a gay man who hated women. I was working at a grocery store at the time and this guy despised me in every sense of the word. Well, another gay man who was packing the groceries said, "Oh, he hates women." I was somewhat bewildered at the time as I couldn't understand what I did wrong. Not too long after that a tall heavy set black woman hated me and attacked me as well. So, they took their anger out on me.

And why not me? Why not be angry with me? Yes, it's true, I did nothing but exist or resemble something triggered their misplaced anger issues. For the gay man it was the fact that I had a vagina and his mother was abusive to him. For the black lady, is was that my skin was white. There were no other reasons, but that, or is there?

I was contemplating those events and asking myself, what should have been the appropriate reaction.

Originally, I had a dumb reaction to both instances, and the reaction was "that is unfair, you don't know me."

What should have been my gay man reaction? Answer: I could have said, well, my father was gay, a pedophile and he hated his children so much that his motto was, "To get to the mother, you must hurt the children." Well, I didn't say it. Should I have said it. And if I did say it, would he have heard what I said, or would he place his reality on the situation and come back with another insult? Who knows. The real question should be, should I have a reaction to his reaction?

What should have been my black womans' reaction? "How dare you? I am just like you, I come from a family of color and the neighborhood kids used to tease me and call me nigger because of my dark skinned father. "I had no reaction, all I did was cry and scream nigger at her as I so foolishly wanted to hurt her as she hurt me. I was not the human being as I am now. Still maturing and figuring out right and wrong. That is kind of hard to do when most of your life you lacked the nurture you needed as a child. Note: Lucky for me God has put people in my path to make me conscious. Thank you, Lord!

So, what should have been my initial reaction to help all parties evolve? Oh and does it matter?


If I had a reaction it may have been good if both parties were in "right-mind," but when you have two "non-right" minds you do not get good results, you get war. Hatred, only because of each party is incapable of right thinking at that moment. Doesn't mean that later down the road when right thinking is possible that evolution will not occur.

Small example from a quote of what appears to be right thinking to me:

“Freethinkers are those who are willing to use their minds without prejudice and without fearing to understand things that clash with their own customs, privileges, or beliefs. This state of mind is not common, but it is essential for right thinking;”

Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy quotes (Russian moral Thinker, Novelist and Philosopher, notable for his influence on Russian literature and politics. 1828-1910)

So, I have evolved from it. If they don't, this is not my problem. It is their path, not mine. I can pray that they become conscious of their actions and they are greeted with the same opportunity to evolution as I am. Unless, I have the opportunity to meet them once again, then what would I do. Angry Gay Man hates me: Answer: "Oh sir, I understand my father was a gay pedophile that tortured both my brother and myself. Here is your change, have a nice day. :D" Would he have heard me? Would it make him angrier? Or would he just walk away.

Angry Black Lady hates me: Answer: "Oh, ma'am I know, people hate me because of my color and my vagina for as long as I lived - I can relate." I think this would make angry black lady angrier at me. Understandable, because often I have heard, white people have no idea what black people go through. I suppose "many" white people may not. If the black community would explain, I don't know if "many" white people would comprehend and if white people went through the same thing would they get it? I do not think they would comprehend either... Why? Well, I am seeing too many "become what they hate" and many would say, "an eye for an eye.". Ghandi would say, "An eye for and eye and the whole world would go blind."

Actually, I think both of those answers are insufficient, so let's explore letting go:

By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond the winning.~Lao Tzu

Perhaps, witnessing and letting go is the best answer. Is that another wrong answer? Because will anyone evolve from letting go.

What would Buddha do? What would Jesus do? And since I am not an authority, I am not a psychiatrist, psychologist or a preacher it is not my place to respond, really? If I respond wouldn't that be my ego trying to push my ideas, my so called right thinking in their face?

The right answer: Since I am not Jesus or Buddha or an authority on Gays or Blacks, psychologist, psychiatrist and since each human is so unique their reaction will be unique I think the best answer for me is to bow and say, "namaste, thank you for this opportunity to evolve." I am not an authority, but I recognize an opportunity when I am given one and from now on when I am faced with a challenge, I will look at it as an opportunity for evolution. As I know for me, I have reflected today, I have went into my heart and said, wow, I am so sorry you are so hurt by this and another bandage on my heart is uncovered and my heart heals naturally. May the same happen for them.