To Point the Finger. It's Your Fault, Eve! Someone please give the girl a break!

Once again the subject of Adam and Eve came up and how humanity is all screwed up because of that one particular event. Of course a huge portion of humanity takes this story very seriously as they point the finger at Adam and Eve for being a couple of suckers! It's not my fault I am screwed up in the head it is their fault! Uh, Really!?!?!?

Okay, I suppose I am being a tadbit rebellious, against who??? I guess that is up who's perusing. I'll wait till God says, "Tina, you are crazy, I think I am going to condemn you to hell for not taking things at face value!"

This is what I am really seeing, I am seeing the "Point the Finger Syndrome." I don't care what happened millennium agos. I don't care if the story is true or false. I care about the here and now.

When I see that story, this is what I see. I see a moral and the moral is; Don't be seduced. Use your head. Don't follow the bad example. Adam and Eve was challenged, God asked not to eat from this particular tree. Snake comes along and seduces, Eve falls for the seduction, then seduces and then Adam falls for the seduction. This is a profound statement being said, but all people want to do is "point the finger." It's their fault, this is why women suffer from childbirth. hahahhahahaha! God can you please come to planet earth and clarify to me please?

Now I can sit here all day and point the finger at them and say, you two are the reason the world is crazy! What good can come from that? It doesn't make sense and to me it turns into a scapegoat and an excuse to be crazy. I can point the finger at myself when I am allowing myself to be seduced by things I should not have. Like pasta and wheat bread, Looks innocent, is real cheap, makes a great meal. But since I have hypothyroidism, I have gluten intolerance and gluten causes my muscles to stiffen. See what I am saying, or do I need to take this subject deeper?

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Opportunity for Evolution

Memory recall today about a gay man who hated women. I was working at a grocery store at the time and this guy despised me in every sense of the word. Well, another gay man who was packing the groceries said, "Oh, he hates women." I was somewhat bewildered at the time as I couldn't understand what I did wrong. Not too long after that a tall heavy set black woman hated me and attacked me as well. So, they took their anger out on me.

And why not me? Why not be angry with me? Yes, it's true, I did nothing but exist or resemble something triggered their misplaced anger issues. For the gay man it was the fact that I had a vagina and his mother was abusive to him. For the black lady, is was that my skin was white. There were no other reasons, but that, or is there?

I was contemplating those events and asking myself, what should have been the appropriate reaction.

Originally, I had a dumb reaction to both instances, and the reaction was "that is unfair, you don't know me."

What should have been my gay man reaction? Answer: I could have said, well, my father was gay, a pedophile and he hated his children so much that his motto was, "To get to the mother, you must hurt the children." Well, I didn't say it. Should I have said it. And if I did say it, would he have heard what I said, or would he place his reality on the situation and come back with another insult? Who knows. The real question should be, should I have a reaction to his reaction?

What should have been my black womans' reaction? "How dare you? I am just like you, I come from a family of color and the neighborhood kids used to tease me and call me nigger because of my dark skinned father. "I had no reaction, all I did was cry and scream nigger at her as I so foolishly wanted to hurt her as she hurt me. I was not the human being as I am now. Still maturing and figuring out right and wrong. That is kind of hard to do when most of your life you lacked the nurture you needed as a child. Note: Lucky for me God has put people in my path to make me conscious. Thank you, Lord!

So, what should have been my initial reaction to help all parties evolve? Oh and does it matter?


If I had a reaction it may have been good if both parties were in "right-mind," but when you have two "non-right" minds you do not get good results, you get war. Hatred, only because of each party is incapable of right thinking at that moment. Doesn't mean that later down the road when right thinking is possible that evolution will not occur.

Small example from a quote of what appears to be right thinking to me:

“Freethinkers are those who are willing to use their minds without prejudice and without fearing to understand things that clash with their own customs, privileges, or beliefs. This state of mind is not common, but it is essential for right thinking;”

Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy quotes (Russian moral Thinker, Novelist and Philosopher, notable for his influence on Russian literature and politics. 1828-1910)

So, I have evolved from it. If they don't, this is not my problem. It is their path, not mine. I can pray that they become conscious of their actions and they are greeted with the same opportunity to evolution as I am. Unless, I have the opportunity to meet them once again, then what would I do. Angry Gay Man hates me: Answer: "Oh sir, I understand my father was a gay pedophile that tortured both my brother and myself. Here is your change, have a nice day. :D" Would he have heard me? Would it make him angrier? Or would he just walk away.

Angry Black Lady hates me: Answer: "Oh, ma'am I know, people hate me because of my color and my vagina for as long as I lived - I can relate." I think this would make angry black lady angrier at me. Understandable, because often I have heard, white people have no idea what black people go through. I suppose "many" white people may not. If the black community would explain, I don't know if "many" white people would comprehend and if white people went through the same thing would they get it? I do not think they would comprehend either... Why? Well, I am seeing too many "become what they hate" and many would say, "an eye for an eye.". Ghandi would say, "An eye for and eye and the whole world would go blind."

Actually, I think both of those answers are insufficient, so let's explore letting go:

By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond the winning.~Lao Tzu

Perhaps, witnessing and letting go is the best answer. Is that another wrong answer? Because will anyone evolve from letting go.

What would Buddha do? What would Jesus do? And since I am not an authority, I am not a psychiatrist, psychologist or a preacher it is not my place to respond, really? If I respond wouldn't that be my ego trying to push my ideas, my so called right thinking in their face?

The right answer: Since I am not Jesus or Buddha or an authority on Gays or Blacks, psychologist, psychiatrist and since each human is so unique their reaction will be unique I think the best answer for me is to bow and say, "namaste, thank you for this opportunity to evolve." I am not an authority, but I recognize an opportunity when I am given one and from now on when I am faced with a challenge, I will look at it as an opportunity for evolution. As I know for me, I have reflected today, I have went into my heart and said, wow, I am so sorry you are so hurt by this and another bandage on my heart is uncovered and my heart heals naturally. May the same happen for them.

Exploration of Moksha -> Goal | To Find True Joy

How do we achieve moksha? What is moksha? Moksha is liberation. Liberation from what? Well, since each of us are unique individuals with unique genealogical backgrounds, generations upon generations of mental programming, unique experiences, unique perspectives, that question -> "liberation from what?" is impossible to answer.

There is absolutely no one answer, except for your exploration to find true joy.

My thoughts in order to find true joy, I am to set a series of guidelines that can evolve as I evolve. I was thinking utilizing the don Miguel Ruiz's Four Agreements as my beginning guidelines. As matter of fact, I am currently developing a contract based from those Agreements for my Nia classes. Heck, I am thinking of making that contract for friends and family members too.

So, let's summarize those guidelines and explore the possibility of moksha through them.

Agreement #1 - Be impeccable with your word. Sounds easy, right? To tell the truth, to speak from the "I," to stop gossiping, it is quite the challenge. Some people find pleasure in hurting others, and gossiping is a great way to hurt people. Also, even if the gossip is true, it is in essence black magic. Even if it is about yourself, it is black magic.

Agreement #2 - Don't take anything personally. Whew, what a challenge but once you've achieved this challenge, life gets so much easier. I know this from experience as this is the one thing that as a fitness instructor, no matter what your modality is, they all say, "Do not take anything personal."

Really, if you think about it, it's true as we are all unique, we all have unique perspectives, and in America, we have a really bad tendency to make fun of others who are not like ourselves. Personally, I find this behavior to be a low level human behavior and find it tasteless. I know as I have partaken in this behavior and found it to be detrimental for my self as it is for others. Luckily, we all have the potential to evolve and the 2nd agreement is a great way to challenge yourself.

Agreement #3 - Do not make assumptions. Now this is by far the most challenging of all the agreements. Watch yourself, explore this and you will see how we have this tendency to make assumptions every day even in the mundane things.

Agreement #4 - Always do your best. Even go as far as to challenge yourself to do better and to challenge yourself to quit. Some people can't stop and make their self sick, some people are so lazy they do not want to pursue the challenge. Tweak and explore the possibilities to do better, feel better, find joy.

Ask yourself, what do I need to challenge myself in finding joy? What do I need to do to find happiness?

What is hindering my process? Why can I not get there? What do I need to get there? What is preventing me to get there?

The subject is moksha. Liberation can mean so much. Slavery comes in many forms, from food to emotions to real life circumstances. I do not know about you, but I am not interested in being a slave to any and all things.

Exploration is the key, so since you are so unique to your very core, how do you explore?