Joyologist, my other Job Title

Today, I was thinking of Joy as I was listening to JOYce Meyer on the YouTube because the woman is so inspiring.  It's nice to see someone in the "Here and Now" reaching out and trying to bring people into self-realization.  Self-realization and the relationship with God. Now I know there will be turns on and turns off because I mentioned Joyce Meyer and she's a Christian. Oh no, she's a Christian or Oh Yay she's a Christian.  etc. etc. etc....  blah, blah, blah. Try to get past that listen to what the woman says!  Let go of the Judging Mind and take trust that God and the Universe has plans in which our human minds cannot fathom.

So, what do you do?  You find ways to be happy, find joy in your life. Find ways to be free from suffering.  
That is my goal in life - help others find joy.  With me it is through the power of dance and the Nia Technique.
 
Then I remembered Winalee Zeeb she is my Nia Technique white belt trainer, incredible lady and made a huge impact with her wisdom and skills as not only a Nia Trainer but her experience in life.  Well, she may have coined the term "Joyologist."  I don't know.  However at the time she stated she puts "Joyologist" on her business card.  I am thinking of going in that direction.  Then I did some research on the web and found this really cool lady ->  http://www.yourjoyologist.com/

photo by Brett Marynn Wulfson

Fell in love with her instantly via her Facebook profile picture.  I couldn't help but to laugh my rear end off.   Her mission is: 

I want for all of us in this world to truly live each day and truly love each day.  This world has so much to offer us, day in and day out, no matter where you are or who you are.  I want you to make this day yours. I want you to make this life yours.

Love that!!! 

So, that is my other job title, "Joyologist!"  As that is my mission in life.  Using the power of dance to help those find joy even if it is for a moment in their life. 

My new schedule will be up in October.  God-willing the Future Life Now studio will be up to code by then.

To Point the Finger. It's Your Fault, Eve! Someone please give the girl a break!

Once again the subject of Adam and Eve came up and how humanity is all screwed up because of that one particular event. Of course a huge portion of humanity takes this story very seriously as they point the finger at Adam and Eve for being a couple of suckers! It's not my fault I am screwed up in the head it is their fault! Uh, Really!?!?!?

Okay, I suppose I am being a tadbit rebellious, against who??? I guess that is up who's perusing. I'll wait till God says, "Tina, you are crazy, I think I am going to condemn you to hell for not taking things at face value!"

This is what I am really seeing, I am seeing the "Point the Finger Syndrome." I don't care what happened millennium agos. I don't care if the story is true or false. I care about the here and now.

When I see that story, this is what I see. I see a moral and the moral is; Don't be seduced. Use your head. Don't follow the bad example. Adam and Eve was challenged, God asked not to eat from this particular tree. Snake comes along and seduces, Eve falls for the seduction, then seduces and then Adam falls for the seduction. This is a profound statement being said, but all people want to do is "point the finger." It's their fault, this is why women suffer from childbirth. hahahhahahaha! God can you please come to planet earth and clarify to me please?

Now I can sit here all day and point the finger at them and say, you two are the reason the world is crazy! What good can come from that? It doesn't make sense and to me it turns into a scapegoat and an excuse to be crazy. I can point the finger at myself when I am allowing myself to be seduced by things I should not have. Like pasta and wheat bread, Looks innocent, is real cheap, makes a great meal. But since I have hypothyroidism, I have gluten intolerance and gluten causes my muscles to stiffen. See what I am saying, or do I need to take this subject deeper?

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Opportunity for Evolution

Memory recall today about a gay man who hated women. I was working at a grocery store at the time and this guy despised me in every sense of the word. Well, another gay man who was packing the groceries said, "Oh, he hates women." I was somewhat bewildered at the time as I couldn't understand what I did wrong. Not too long after that a tall heavy set black woman hated me and attacked me as well. So, they took their anger out on me.

And why not me? Why not be angry with me? Yes, it's true, I did nothing but exist or resemble something triggered their misplaced anger issues. For the gay man it was the fact that I had a vagina and his mother was abusive to him. For the black lady, is was that my skin was white. There were no other reasons, but that, or is there?

I was contemplating those events and asking myself, what should have been the appropriate reaction.

Originally, I had a dumb reaction to both instances, and the reaction was "that is unfair, you don't know me."

What should have been my gay man reaction? Answer: I could have said, well, my father was gay, a pedophile and he hated his children so much that his motto was, "To get to the mother, you must hurt the children." Well, I didn't say it. Should I have said it. And if I did say it, would he have heard what I said, or would he place his reality on the situation and come back with another insult? Who knows. The real question should be, should I have a reaction to his reaction?

What should have been my black womans' reaction? "How dare you? I am just like you, I come from a family of color and the neighborhood kids used to tease me and call me nigger because of my dark skinned father. "I had no reaction, all I did was cry and scream nigger at her as I so foolishly wanted to hurt her as she hurt me. I was not the human being as I am now. Still maturing and figuring out right and wrong. That is kind of hard to do when most of your life you lacked the nurture you needed as a child. Note: Lucky for me God has put people in my path to make me conscious. Thank you, Lord!

So, what should have been my initial reaction to help all parties evolve? Oh and does it matter?


If I had a reaction it may have been good if both parties were in "right-mind," but when you have two "non-right" minds you do not get good results, you get war. Hatred, only because of each party is incapable of right thinking at that moment. Doesn't mean that later down the road when right thinking is possible that evolution will not occur.

Small example from a quote of what appears to be right thinking to me:

“Freethinkers are those who are willing to use their minds without prejudice and without fearing to understand things that clash with their own customs, privileges, or beliefs. This state of mind is not common, but it is essential for right thinking;”

Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy quotes (Russian moral Thinker, Novelist and Philosopher, notable for his influence on Russian literature and politics. 1828-1910)

So, I have evolved from it. If they don't, this is not my problem. It is their path, not mine. I can pray that they become conscious of their actions and they are greeted with the same opportunity to evolution as I am. Unless, I have the opportunity to meet them once again, then what would I do. Angry Gay Man hates me: Answer: "Oh sir, I understand my father was a gay pedophile that tortured both my brother and myself. Here is your change, have a nice day. :D" Would he have heard me? Would it make him angrier? Or would he just walk away.

Angry Black Lady hates me: Answer: "Oh, ma'am I know, people hate me because of my color and my vagina for as long as I lived - I can relate." I think this would make angry black lady angrier at me. Understandable, because often I have heard, white people have no idea what black people go through. I suppose "many" white people may not. If the black community would explain, I don't know if "many" white people would comprehend and if white people went through the same thing would they get it? I do not think they would comprehend either... Why? Well, I am seeing too many "become what they hate" and many would say, "an eye for an eye.". Ghandi would say, "An eye for and eye and the whole world would go blind."

Actually, I think both of those answers are insufficient, so let's explore letting go:

By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond the winning.~Lao Tzu

Perhaps, witnessing and letting go is the best answer. Is that another wrong answer? Because will anyone evolve from letting go.

What would Buddha do? What would Jesus do? And since I am not an authority, I am not a psychiatrist, psychologist or a preacher it is not my place to respond, really? If I respond wouldn't that be my ego trying to push my ideas, my so called right thinking in their face?

The right answer: Since I am not Jesus or Buddha or an authority on Gays or Blacks, psychologist, psychiatrist and since each human is so unique their reaction will be unique I think the best answer for me is to bow and say, "namaste, thank you for this opportunity to evolve." I am not an authority, but I recognize an opportunity when I am given one and from now on when I am faced with a challenge, I will look at it as an opportunity for evolution. As I know for me, I have reflected today, I have went into my heart and said, wow, I am so sorry you are so hurt by this and another bandage on my heart is uncovered and my heart heals naturally. May the same happen for them.

Exploration of Moksha -> Goal | To Find True Joy

How do we achieve moksha? What is moksha? Moksha is liberation. Liberation from what? Well, since each of us are unique individuals with unique genealogical backgrounds, generations upon generations of mental programming, unique experiences, unique perspectives, that question -> "liberation from what?" is impossible to answer.

There is absolutely no one answer, except for your exploration to find true joy.

My thoughts in order to find true joy, I am to set a series of guidelines that can evolve as I evolve. I was thinking utilizing the don Miguel Ruiz's Four Agreements as my beginning guidelines. As matter of fact, I am currently developing a contract based from those Agreements for my Nia classes. Heck, I am thinking of making that contract for friends and family members too.

So, let's summarize those guidelines and explore the possibility of moksha through them.

Agreement #1 - Be impeccable with your word. Sounds easy, right? To tell the truth, to speak from the "I," to stop gossiping, it is quite the challenge. Some people find pleasure in hurting others, and gossiping is a great way to hurt people. Also, even if the gossip is true, it is in essence black magic. Even if it is about yourself, it is black magic.

Agreement #2 - Don't take anything personally. Whew, what a challenge but once you've achieved this challenge, life gets so much easier. I know this from experience as this is the one thing that as a fitness instructor, no matter what your modality is, they all say, "Do not take anything personal."

Really, if you think about it, it's true as we are all unique, we all have unique perspectives, and in America, we have a really bad tendency to make fun of others who are not like ourselves. Personally, I find this behavior to be a low level human behavior and find it tasteless. I know as I have partaken in this behavior and found it to be detrimental for my self as it is for others. Luckily, we all have the potential to evolve and the 2nd agreement is a great way to challenge yourself.

Agreement #3 - Do not make assumptions. Now this is by far the most challenging of all the agreements. Watch yourself, explore this and you will see how we have this tendency to make assumptions every day even in the mundane things.

Agreement #4 - Always do your best. Even go as far as to challenge yourself to do better and to challenge yourself to quit. Some people can't stop and make their self sick, some people are so lazy they do not want to pursue the challenge. Tweak and explore the possibilities to do better, feel better, find joy.

Ask yourself, what do I need to challenge myself in finding joy? What do I need to do to find happiness?

What is hindering my process? Why can I not get there? What do I need to get there? What is preventing me to get there?

The subject is moksha. Liberation can mean so much. Slavery comes in many forms, from food to emotions to real life circumstances. I do not know about you, but I am not interested in being a slave to any and all things.

Exploration is the key, so since you are so unique to your very core, how do you explore?




 

Keep Talking

A voice is a human gift; it should be cherished and used, to utter fully human speech as possible. Powerlessness and silence go together. ~Margret Atwood

Back in 1994 Pink Floyd came out with the album called "Division Bell" and a song, "Keep Talking." Yes, came out with an album too, which was called, "Talk."

I believe these two bands were trying to send a message.

Keep Talking Lyrics

There's a silence surrounding me
I can't seem to think straight
I'll sit in the corner
No one can bother me
I think I should speak now
___________
Why won't you talk to me

I can't seem to speak now
____________
You never talk to me

My words won't come out right
________
What are you thinking

I feel like I'm drowning
_____________
What are you feeling

I'm feeling weak now
_________________
Why won't you talk to me

But I can't show my weakness
_________
You never talk to me

I sometimes wonder
___________________
What are you thinking

Where do we go from here
_____________
What are you feeling

It doesn't have to be like this
All we need to do is make sure we keep talking

Yes it was in the song "Endless Dream" on the album "Talk," which is a three part song, which includes talk.

Hold your head up high you know you've
Come a long way, a long way
Tainted as a fugitive with nothing left to say
Temptation may come hope your vision doesn't stray
In the name of God you may be forced away

Moving forward to the only place you know
Side tracked by some indiscretion
Changing as you go

Temptation may come hope your
Conscience doesn't hide
The longest trip you'll take is inside

I am quickly learning. To Not Talk can have detrimental consequences and the consequence can vary.

I am not a saint, and much like the billions of other people on this planet, I have committed crimes against others, crimes against myself, crimes against nature and crimes against God. Let me ask you this, who the heck has not?

Who has not lied? Who has not done black magic? Gossiping, running their mouths about someone. Who does not steal life? Who does not exploit? Who on this planet is holy and pure?

Silence. We grow silent, because we strive to be perfect and we strive to make an image that we are perfect? Who said perfect is a good thing?

Silence. Is being molested as a child and not telling anyone because it will destroy the family.

Silence. Is saying you cannot speak to people about your crimes because they will judge you.

Silence is saying you know something is wrong but you cannot tell anyone because they will hurt you. You fight this dis-ease inside you but, you are not getting the help and support you need to not be a slave to your fears, your desires, your anger. The world will judge you.

Silence, means it's okay to hurt sentient beings as they cannot talk back.

Silence is an insanity that makes people chronic diseased.

Silence is working in a job where you cannot speak out when you know the corporation is committing heinous crimes.

The world had lost it's voice and the pain festers and festers. Silence is a crime against man, against nature and against God.

The governments of this world is freaking out they can no longer control us, they can no longer silence us. It is after all the information age. They poisoned us with the industrial age and now it's the information age as we are quickly learning that we have been poisoned for nearly a millennium.

People are sick. jobs are lost, no money for insurance, no insurance to get help. The information age exposes this.

The information age is exposing the crimes done by your country, their country and my country. The people are realizing this, thanks to the information age.

However, more black magic is casted on corporate own media. More black magic is casted as politicians defame other politicians. More black magic is casted to those who are slaves to their desires.

What do you do? Do you surrender? Do you blame? Do you fight? What can you do? Do you remain silent in hopes that it will all pass? What does silence really do to you, your body, your mind.

I am finding remaining silent causes more problems than we need. I keep thinking of my mother, her silence because a family member hurt her. She chose silence and because she did, she suffers internally. Her heart broken, her bitterness, her resentment has not only affected her, but her children, her relationships, her trust in God. All because she felt silence was needed to protect herself, protect someone she loved.

Her silence reflects in her environment, her silence reflected in her lack of nurture for her children as she has shut down. Her silence forbids her to stand up for herself, for her children, for the very loved one who she was trying to protect all these years.

Absolute silence leads to sadness. It is the image of death.
~Jean Jacques Rousseau

Don't be one of those people on their deaths bed, dying on a bed filled with regret, wishing they would have spoke out more.

I write for those women who do not speak, for those who do not have a voice because they were so terrified, because we are taught to respect fear more than ourselves. We've been taught that silence would save us, but it won't. ~Audre Lorde

Keep Talking!

Location:Cincinnati, Ohio

Preparing for Blue Belt - Body Mind and Soul

Helen Terry, a Nia Black Belt and Teacher Trainer, is coming to the Greater Cincinnati Tristate this April 2012. I am very excited about this event because I know the transformation that will take place during this time.

Nia has been quite the transformational process for me. I've been teaching Nia for 2 years now, and was certified 3 years ago and wow, I'm still amazed and humbled by what it has done for me. Even with the trials, tribulations and hallucinations that have occurred in the past years I am still amazed of the changes, the awakenings, what have you, that have occurred in my life.

When I first started, I'll be honest, I was hoping to make money while being a stay-at-home mom and trying to find a way to keep motivated to move so I could live - be alive! Honestly, I felt like I was dying since I have had my son, we spent 71 days in the hospital together and I knew I had to find something to keep me healthy. Nia has done that for me with my motivation being my love for dance. Nia has open the opportunity to dance for me.

Then when I realized that this was going to be a really hard task, for one, making money at it, two the schism taking place for what ever reason I am still unclear of. Then my body was really failing as my thyroid was failing me. I had to up my hormones and suffer from the consequences of the hormones meds. Those same meds are causing anxieties and depression which I am consistently working through. Concentration was impossible and the chronic fatigue was taxing. And I am sure I have been quite bitchy in the process because my hormones are all over the place, every moon phase I feel death take over my body and wonder am I going to die today. This and I am going on 40 and possibly peri-menopausal. There are times where I become a hormonal temperamental mess. The good part of this is, I am conscious of it and frequently work through it with hopes I do not put my foot in my mouth. HA! Take that!

Back to Nia, Nia started to open doors for me, it introduced me to the Feldenkrais Method via Cynthia Allen, Integrative Learning Center and Future Life Now CEO, which gave me the tools to work with my sciatic nerve pinches and alleviate pain. It opened me up to my own demons and how to work with them and not to be a slave to them. It has given me self-knowledge - getting to know myself: fears, anger, bitterness and my judging mind. Nia has taught me to step into beginners mind. It has taught me to be compassionate to others and forgiving them and myself. I am mostly hard on myself than I am on others.

It has taught me to be a little bit more open. It wouldn't surprise me if a lot of people think of me as someone who has something to hide. I do, my own pain and suffering. There "was" a lot of suffering, my heart, my body, my soul has been crying for quite some time. I keep those emotions locked away from everyone to see, because I figure this is something I need to work through, and it's none of your business. It's up to God to put the right people in my life to help me through that and God has certainly put people in my life to help me through it, amazing people and continues to do so with Nia and other modalities. I have come to the conclusion that you must be quite the incredible person to take the time to get to know me. To see through the wall and help me tear it down and God has, one brick at a time.

Nia has also opened me up to an array of people who have helped me find answers to my thyroid situation. Rachael Resch, a Nia black belt and Teacher Trainer has opened the door to me with that as I am currently transition with my diet to cure my thyroid. On this diet, I have lost weight and prevented chronic fatigue.

Through Nia, I have been challenged by instructors, I have been nurtured by instructors, and I have also been defamed by instructors. It's all good, it's all apart of the process of my evolution. This is what Nia has done for me. It has helped me evolve. I am not the person I used to be - I have become amazing. I am still working through the dark parts, but it's ok, I trust that it will all work out.

Now, my goal for blue belt, or however many belts it takes to get there. I want to absorb the very essence of joy. I want to be joy. When I walk in a room, I want people to feel the ever presence of joy. When people come near me, if they are blue I want them to become joyful. I want to use Nia as a way for people to find joy in themselves, become it and make it contagious so that they fill the hearts of their friends and loved ones with joy. God-willing this will happen. I am not a very religious person, but I know God, I am confident in the way God works, and I am confident that God wants this for me.

I was hoping this was to happen in October for Green Belt in Sarasota with Nia Black Belt and Teacher Trainer, Kelly Atkins and Helen Terry. Which is okay, with Miss Kelly, I've had many revelations. But, it has to happen here in Cincinnati and with this community.

Finally, this April is going to be amazing, one way or another, it's going to be extraordinary and I am anxious, open and ready for what ever comes my way. Hopefully, God has prepared me for my mind to be open, for my mind to listen, to hone my skills and to become the very essence of joy. And if not this belt, perhaps the next. We'll see, it's all about natural timing.

If you live in the area or around, I invite you to join us. Starting April 14th, 2012 at the Kula Center in Newport, Kentucky. I am very happy that that Saturday at 6:00pm she will be doing a routine with the music from the band Pink Floyd. This band has also been a key component of my evolution, so I am very excited about this.

For more information on the Blue Belt training: http://www.nianow.com/nia-training/257/nia-blue-belt-intensive-training-11

I consider myself honored and blessed to have this opportunity and I am looking forward to dancing with all who come.

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Location:Cincinnati, Ohio

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